Date: Sat, 22 Dec 2007 06:39:46 +0800
well i guess i have to make myself clear about my family background. I come from a clan which believe in Taoism, my grandfather has established a temple in Malaysia and own a group of believers, i dont know the in-depth of the temple cause i seldom intervene my family's matter, all i know is we worship 太上老君. i am myself quite religious, way now still stuck between Taosim and Buddhism, even so i am very faithful to what i have believe. I am also interested in fortune telling such as 紫微斗数, but unfortunately i dont have the time to learn more about it, plus my chinese basic wasnt very good enough for me to understand those 文言文.
All these years i have been trying to know myself from chart, but when it comes to detail part i couldnt really capable to dig into it, all i know is, which is according to my understanding, my chart just "looks" nice yet doesnt, i was born in winter, and my chart is 天机巨门, supposingly needs water and wood(i dunno, i always confuse with 5 elements), but because i was born in winter, i had actually weaken my strength part. I dunno whther my understanding is correct, because is just what i interpreted by myself, so dont take it too serious.
Even so, i know that compare to others i have been way luckier, as my parents are capable to give me better living. But i feel the pressure, insecurity and emptiness all the time since i was young, cause i feel like i am being captured and confined by some transparent web, like my parents' wish and things, is burdensome that made me couldnt really feel happy, plus my character is quite introverted. For friends, i do believe i have owed them alot maybe during the past, that make me intrinsically treat them really nice.....always...i have to give out more then them. I kind of realise after i read my own chart...if fate does exist.=_=
I hope this would help you for your interpretations and calculations. sorry for telling this late.
Cheers,
yours,
Vermillion. |